Just wanted to add that things are magically turning up--since end of March/Hokkaido trip. Nothing major, nothing big, no idea why, just things are getting better. Do I want to go back to L.A.? No, not yet. I'm finally at that phase now :)
On top of that, one of my Belgian friend in my dorm offered me and Hanna some Belgian chocolate (Cote d'or)--apparently it's the most popular brand in Belgium and is also well known in the European countries surrounding it. I've never seen/heard of it, but it is balls to the wall good. So smooth, perfectly rich/mild mix, Golden.